stood in the midst of the fallen city, looking around,
watching people at work. There were people from all around
the world that came to help to save more and more lives
from the debris which remained after the sudden earthquake
that struck the city and its highlights. There were thousands
of buildings that were collapsed after the big earthquake.
worked for the Red Cross in New Delhi about a couple of
years so she knew where to go along with Robert after
the incident. They were among the first volunteers to
help the victims of the earthquake. Everybody around were
confused and running around. People wanted to help their
loved ones and relatives. The silent of death was ruling
the city, which was turned upside down.
walked on the long street and at this part of the city
nothing was moving. Suddenly he got excited and felt like
helping everybody that is under the debris of the buildings
that fall apart. He could not believe his eyes, he was
praying continuously. It was too much to handle after
all he went through, he wanted to scream out loud with
tears flooding out of his eyes. He was helpless; there
was nothing but death all around him.
a while the whole city was at work to heal the people.
There were thousands of people who lost their homes trying
to survive in thousands of tents. Petra was busy nursing
the injured children. She was experienced in helping children
who are in need of help. She helped them through the hunger
they went through years ago. Robert sat there and watched
her in action. He had done all the things he could by
that time. She always had a smile on her face, which helped
people forget their fears and pain. Robert felt relaxed
with her calm behaviors and he felt the bliss, existence,
and the consciousness. He was building himself the way
he used to be before he came to India with the help of
Petra’s being. They were staying in the same tent
provided by the Red Cross. In the middle of this confusion
they did not talk about the things they went through before.
The pain of the people and the remains of the city was
quietly talking to them and screaming out for help. There
was not any point and time for them to discuss their personal
city was still under the effect of the earthquake, still
shaking with aftershocks. The people living on the street
in the tents or working continuously to save more and
more people. Robert was also helping them out.
time rolled by and the rescue mission had come down to
last. The return for life to be normal was far more years
away. Robert thought to himself it was time to make things
clear. He decided to talk to Petra about what happened
and about the little blond girl. At the end of the day
they came together in their tent and Robert asked her
if it was the right time for them to talk about how things
We can talk on our way back home “she said with
a smile”. I have arranged a place for us in a plane
by Red Cross, which is going to take us home as soon as
we are ready.”
looked at her with his eyes wide open waiting reality
to hit him like a hammer beating on a nail: “ I
feel strange about this place to tell you the truth but
it is a promising place that helped me realize more about
myself and the relaxing people around us make me want
to stay but after all it is a good idea to go back home
in Boston. We have a lot to share on the way”. Robert
said and relaxed with a sigh.
morning Petra and Robert got themselves together and were
on their way to the plane arranged by The Red Cross. They
lost all of their belongings but the American Embassy
recognized them as citizens during their work with the
people who went through that unexpected earthquake.
of them were smiling on their way to the plane and the
thoughts wandering in their minds were the same, they
both knew why they got here and their mission was completed
with honors. Robert was aware that Petra carried all the
answers he wanted to know and Petra, on the other hand
had good surprising answers for her friend Robert.
trip was short to the airport where the plane was present.
Robert felt happy to be on his way back home. They finally
arrived and got settled in the plane, which was ready
for take off to U.S of A. It was a cargo plane destined
to New York to bring supplied aid by the Americans for
the people of India. They were the only two passengers
on an empty plane, which is going to return to Delhi with
was ready to answer Robert’s questions, which will
make her really tired to answer because Robert did not
know what Petra knew. On the other hand she wanted to
let him know about everything.
was the light of truth” said Petra holding Robert’s
hand while the plane cut through the thin air on 30,000
feel secure about what the light of truth shows me. It
is my reality and awareness, the light of truth is preparing
me for reality which is going to hit me.” He sound
a little insecure of his own presence, his insight was
lacking a big piece as if it was torn out of him and the
answer he was looking for was scary enough before it came
out of Petra’s lips.
little girl was your dream, she is the meaning of your
life, you made her unaware with the girl whom you got
her love from her withering heights. She was your pure
light of truth informing you about a reality that you
are unaware of.” Said Petra looking sharp into his
mean I have a mission which is to find her.”
this is the definition of what is puzzling you and causing
all the problems within your mind.”
dived into a deep silence looking but not focusing, just
staring into his emptiness, as if he was looking but not
seeing anything. He paused for a while and he began to
think how and why such thing happened. Then suddenly he
saw the little blonde girl image in his mind. He was looking
inside the plane but he could only see the image of the
little blonde girl, his own, lost daughter.
knew her so well. That was why she did not see Robert
as he saw her. They were good friends to begin with and
Petra paid good attention to not to take it forward because
she was Robert’s guide in light.
had a exact twin sister and you did not know that. After
one of the twin sister was pregnant they changed places
and the twin sister was taken away from the withering
heights and moved to South America.”
listened with patience and he was amazed by the facts
told by Petra.
he yelled. He recalled a letter written by her. The letter
cried inside me and the tears went inside. The angel on
your left shoulder made a deal with the devil. The angel
on your left shoulder knew it was wrong because the devil
was too good to her. However, it did not matter I left
the door open for you and the energy of the tears got
inside. It is burning inside with your flame. –
Now he knew what it meant. She was actually
explaining that she was pregnant. At the time he read
the letter he was unaware of everything but her love although
later he threw away all of her letters by tearing them
into pieces and the reason…….the reason was
that he thought she did not know what he wanted and his
world evolving around him caused him to do such a thing.
He simply had not got and reason….and that was the
Petra touched his face with her soft hands and
Robert flashed back into the plane and back to where he
“Do you want to talk about it? This is just the beginning
of your time.”
“Yes, I want to but I loved two different girls that looked
exactly like each other and I think I was fooled by them.
This is giving me a lot of pain in my heart.”
“Your time has begun as I said. It is your decision to turn
back time and it is not going to be easy. It is going
to take time and energy from you.”
“That is a fact. I do not think I can take it anymore. It
looks as if I have suffered enough because of my naivety
and I think if I am a father, it looks as if the mother
does not need me so far. So there cannot be a family as
I imagine now. It will make me suffer and I do not need
anymore pain in my heart.”
Robert was more than confused at this point with what Petra had
told him. The flames inside him was destroying his insight
into pieces. He did not know how to live with such truth.
There were thoughts coming to him in thousands of directions
along with the flashbacks of the times he spent with the
twins. He did not want to believe but the reality hit
him after all this suffering and damnation. He felt like
an unwanted child of a family left out in the darkness
of the big city, he had not got any where to go. He had
to make a plan and began to search for options in his
mind. He did not know who to ask and what to make out
of what he found out today. He rest his head on the back
of the seat and closed his eyes. He felt as if he did
not exist but there was only one way to find out. He had
to go by the book, The Light of Truth, and he fell asleep
on the uncomfortable seat of the plane, not knowing what
to do. He knew one thing for sure that he had built up
his strength again and decide whether he will follow this
mission or just let go and leave everything the way it
has been so far. He shook his head as a sign of negativity
towards people of this system and what they are up to.
He was going to have to deal with all the dirty laundry
after he starts digging into this matter. The plane moved
among the clouds and Robert was half asleep and half dreaming,
he almost forgot who he was.
The plane made the final touchdown for landing and now it was on
its way to the airport. Petra and Robert seemed happy
to be back home but the thoughts and ideas were eating
Robert from the inside.
“Would you like to spend the night here in New York?”
She asked with a calm and soothing voice. Robert was having
hard times speaking about anything. He was in despair
and doubted everyone and everything around him. Petra
thought it would be much better for him to be back in
his apartment in Boston. Then she arranged a flight for
two to Boston and they started to wait. Robert was as
if he was mute and Petra did not feel uncomfortable with
“I have to be left alone in this matter. I do not need anybody.”
Robert said suddenly.
At that moment Petra was about to leave him there on his own because
she was really offended with his words. Then she thought
after such an event it was impossible to trust people
and that there were all kinds of people everywhere in
“This is your choice but do not forget that I know about
this more than you do. What happened to all that love
you had for me? It suddenly disappeared or what? She asked
with desperate eyes. She wanted to be a part of Robert’s
“And now you are asking me for love after telling me the
story of my life that I was not aware of. Do you think
it is possible to love someone when you are in my shoes?
I refuse to talk to you for the rest of the trip. This
is one of the turning points of my life. You were not
there for me on time. Therefore, you will not be there
in the future either. I need some time alone to get my
head together.” Robert was silent and Petra looked
at him with her emerald eyes and Robert tried to hide
his eyes from her. He did not need any further discussion
about this subject.
After waiting two hours in silence at the airport their flight
to Boston took off. It took about one hour to reach Logan
Airport. They got into separate taxis on their way home.
Robert had a plan already. The Light of Truth was calling
for him again. He was going to place the seed of meditation
as the first thing as soon as he went home and yes there
was a long journey waiting for him to start his mission.
To be continue...
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of Light p.2